1 00:02:19,757 --> 00:02:24,388 MEMORIES OF A SNAIL 2 00:02:24,398 --> 00:02:27,361 Subtitles: invisiblecat 3 00:02:46,973 --> 00:02:48,077 Goodbye... 4 00:02:48,533 --> 00:02:49,680 Pinkie. 5 00:02:56,082 --> 00:02:57,464 The potatoes! 6 00:03:01,785 --> 00:03:02,863 Potatoes? 7 00:03:03,872 --> 00:03:04,965 Potatoes? 8 00:03:05,919 --> 00:03:06,997 Pinkie? 9 00:03:07,301 --> 00:03:08,891 Pinky, what do you mean? 10 00:03:13,256 --> 00:03:14,570 Oh, Pinky. 11 00:03:18,576 --> 00:03:21,154 PINKY'S CRYING PLANTS 12 00:03:41,333 --> 00:03:42,895 Be free, Sylvia. 13 00:03:46,157 --> 00:03:48,099 Don't worry, I'll be fine. 14 00:03:49,192 --> 00:03:51,273 I wasn't always this alone. 15 00:03:51,998 --> 00:03:54,563 My childhood was full of people. 16 00:03:58,420 --> 00:04:01,551 Dad said that childhood it's like being drunk. 17 00:04:01,561 --> 00:04:05,237 Everyone remembers what you did, apart from you. 18 00:04:05,643 --> 00:04:08,546 But my childhood was how to be sober, Sylvia. 19 00:04:08,556 --> 00:04:10,378 I remember everything. 20 00:04:10,388 --> 00:04:12,578 From the beginning. 21 00:04:13,851 --> 00:04:16,865 I've always liked feeling protected. 22 00:04:17,349 --> 00:04:20,072 Warm and safe. 23 00:04:22,229 --> 00:04:24,524 It was a shock to be born prematurely. 24 00:04:24,534 --> 00:04:26,224 I wasn't ready yet. 25 00:04:26,234 --> 00:04:28,436 And I looked like a little rabbit. 26 00:04:30,017 --> 00:04:33,427 They called me Grace Prudence Pudel. 27 00:04:33,437 --> 00:04:36,985 My twin brother Gilbert. 28 00:04:36,995 --> 00:04:40,707 The nurse said we had two souls but one heart. 29 00:04:42,131 --> 00:04:43,507 He was right. 30 00:04:44,727 --> 00:04:47,119 Our birth was very tiring for mum... 31 00:04:47,693 --> 00:04:50,153 And he died. 32 00:04:50,858 --> 00:04:52,621 We have left his members. 33 00:04:53,326 --> 00:04:55,317 She has reached her grave. 34 00:04:56,326 --> 00:04:59,561 It also happens to mother snails when they lay their eggs. 35 00:05:01,082 --> 00:05:02,513 Isn't that so, Sylvia? 36 00:05:06,739 --> 00:05:10,458 As I grew up, I began to suffer of a wide range of disorders. 37 00:05:12,794 --> 00:05:15,269 I always ended up in the hospital for something. 38 00:05:16,651 --> 00:05:18,843 The doctors said I was like a doll 39 00:05:18,853 --> 00:05:21,360 that could break just looking at it. 40 00:05:22,581 --> 00:05:26,182 Finally the time came to correct my floppy lip. 41 00:05:34,737 --> 00:05:36,604 The surgery went badly. 42 00:05:39,956 --> 00:05:43,645 I had lost so much blood that I needed a transfusion. 43 00:05:44,027 --> 00:05:48,133 The doctors asked Gilbert if it was willing to give me his blood. 44 00:05:59,206 --> 00:06:00,505 He accepted. 45 00:06:00,872 --> 00:06:04,300 Although he believed it would had to die to save me. 46 00:06:04,729 --> 00:06:06,595 How long will it take me to die? 47 00:06:07,618 --> 00:06:10,408 They explained to him immediately that he wouldn't die. 48 00:06:10,418 --> 00:06:13,113 His body would have produced new blood. 49 00:06:14,579 --> 00:06:16,805 He became everyone's hero that night. 50 00:06:17,489 --> 00:06:18,989 Especially mine. 51 00:06:20,081 --> 00:06:21,602 To cheer me up... 52 00:06:21,612 --> 00:06:24,284 Dad gave me the old one mom's jewelry box. 53 00:06:32,063 --> 00:06:35,658 Inside was his collection of snails and his ring. 54 00:06:36,660 --> 00:06:39,148 She also loved snails. 55 00:06:39,158 --> 00:06:40,876 She was a malacologist. 56 00:06:41,789 --> 00:06:44,727 I thought the ring Gilbert should have it. 57 00:06:45,414 --> 00:06:48,649 I'll wear it until the day of my death, Gracie. 58 00:06:50,512 --> 00:06:53,277 CONDOMINIUM 59 00:07:13,172 --> 00:07:14,797 LIFE CYCLE OF THE SNAIL 60 00:07:14,807 --> 00:07:16,771 Despite my misfortunes, Sylvia, 61 00:07:17,282 --> 00:07:21,568 I believed in the glass half full and on the positive side of things. 62 00:07:22,190 --> 00:07:25,441 Gilbert's glass was always half empty, though. 63 00:07:25,451 --> 00:07:27,954 I remember that he was often sad. 64 00:07:28,437 --> 00:07:31,534 It looked like it had a secret to reveal. 65 00:07:32,015 --> 00:07:34,324 He was like Holden Caulfield, 66 00:07:34,334 --> 00:07:38,379 James Dean, and Charlie Brown all in the same person. 67 00:07:38,841 --> 00:07:41,088 He saw people as a threat. 68 00:07:41,587 --> 00:07:44,808 He was always my warrior at school. 69 00:07:44,818 --> 00:07:46,083 He defended me. 70 00:07:46,093 --> 00:07:51,129 Bunny face! Bunny face! Bunny face! Bunny face! 71 00:07:52,880 --> 00:07:54,369 Give me this. 72 00:07:54,922 --> 00:07:56,222 MALE BATHROOM 73 00:08:03,941 --> 00:08:05,268 Hey, you idiots! 74 00:08:54,848 --> 00:08:57,887 Our home was our sanctuary. 75 00:08:57,897 --> 00:08:59,988 A place where we felt safe. 76 00:08:59,998 --> 00:09:03,544 Where we read books and watched our favorite programs 77 00:09:03,713 --> 00:09:04,879 THE TWO RONNIES 78 00:09:04,880 --> 00:09:11,088 {\an8}GRACE'S ROOM 79 00:09:07,446 --> 00:09:09,534 I loved my room. 80 00:09:10,751 --> 00:09:11,981 It was where... 81 00:09:11,991 --> 00:09:15,057 Everything was in the right place. 82 00:09:16,499 --> 00:09:19,007 Right angles made me feel good. 83 00:09:19,017 --> 00:09:21,122 Like my snails, Sylvia. 84 00:09:22,943 --> 00:09:24,519 They were my friends. 85 00:09:25,653 --> 00:09:28,086 So I created some more. 86 00:09:28,639 --> 00:09:30,837 I knew they couldn't abandon me. 87 00:09:31,307 --> 00:09:32,532 Hurt me. 88 00:09:33,458 --> 00:09:34,578 Or die. 89 00:09:37,467 --> 00:09:39,624 I didn't like people dying. 90 00:09:41,857 --> 00:09:43,765 I wanted to save people. 91 00:09:44,429 --> 00:09:46,019 Save the homeless. 92 00:09:47,491 --> 00:09:49,496 My favorite was James. 93 00:09:53,590 --> 00:09:56,189 One Christmas, I covered it with decorations 94 00:09:56,199 --> 00:09:59,049 so that he felt too the joy of Christmas. 95 00:09:59,866 --> 00:10:02,175 He loved his tea. 96 00:10:09,927 --> 00:10:11,683 Well done, little opossum. 97 00:10:12,374 --> 00:10:13,551 Good. 98 00:10:15,501 --> 00:10:17,146 He was previously a magistrate 99 00:10:17,156 --> 00:10:19,745 but he was struck off for having masturbated in the classroom. 100 00:10:22,786 --> 00:10:26,788 At the time I believed that masturbating it meant chewing food slowly. 101 00:10:27,432 --> 00:10:29,139 He once told me that... 102 00:10:29,149 --> 00:10:31,973 Masturbation is the thief of time. 103 00:10:38,005 --> 00:10:40,673 James gave me my first real snail. 104 00:10:41,807 --> 00:10:43,562 Your mother, Sylvia. 105 00:10:45,714 --> 00:10:48,631 He told me to put it in a large jar 106 00:10:48,641 --> 00:10:50,732 and feed her Vegemite. 107 00:10:51,824 --> 00:10:54,718 While I was busy to save the world... 108 00:10:54,728 --> 00:10:56,917 Gilbert wanted to be free. 109 00:10:58,182 --> 00:10:59,613 Free others. 110 00:11:00,761 --> 00:11:01,894 What? 111 00:11:05,733 --> 00:11:08,706 Once he let him escape the neighbors' cockatoo. 112 00:11:14,554 --> 00:11:16,710 Fly, Mildred! Come on, fly! 113 00:11:22,030 --> 00:11:23,411 Hello, Mildred! 114 00:11:23,421 --> 00:11:26,755 Gilbert said he hadn't I've never seen Mildred so happy. 115 00:11:31,299 --> 00:11:33,532 If he wasn't releasing an animal... 116 00:11:33,856 --> 00:11:35,543 He was saving one. 117 00:11:37,575 --> 00:11:39,711 He didn't care about the dangers. 118 00:11:42,922 --> 00:11:44,505 I'll save her, Gracie! 119 00:11:49,945 --> 00:11:51,217 Gilbert! 120 00:11:58,057 --> 00:11:59,785 Let's go, Stella! 121 00:12:11,380 --> 00:12:13,188 This way, Gracie! 122 00:12:17,276 --> 00:12:20,014 Gilbert loved animals so much... 123 00:12:20,024 --> 00:12:22,114 Who became a vegetarian. 124 00:12:28,985 --> 00:12:31,087 Now she has a boyfriend. 125 00:12:36,191 --> 00:12:38,596 Look, Gracie, they're hugging. 126 00:12:45,245 --> 00:12:46,365 Egg! 127 00:12:47,077 --> 00:12:49,828 We created our little family. 128 00:12:49,838 --> 00:12:52,399 They've hatched, Gracie. Puppies! 129 00:12:54,459 --> 00:12:57,012 You were my favorite, Sylvia. 130 00:12:58,464 --> 00:13:01,450 The spiral of your shell went in the opposite direction of the others. 131 00:13:02,570 --> 00:13:04,565 Gilbert chose your name. 132 00:13:04,575 --> 00:13:06,330 Like mom's favorite author. 133 00:13:05,258 --> 00:13:07,498 {\an8}THE GLASS BELL 134 00:13:11,077 --> 00:13:13,842 But what makes Gilbert truly unique... 135 00:13:14,699 --> 00:13:17,423 It was his love of fire. 136 00:13:20,146 --> 00:13:21,811 He wanted to eat it. 137 00:13:25,786 --> 00:13:29,160 He spent hours playing with fire. 138 00:13:54,170 --> 00:13:57,654 He always had it on him the smell of burning matches. 139 00:13:57,951 --> 00:14:00,522 {\an8}THE YOUNG HOLDEN 140 00:13:59,893 --> 00:14:03,087 At school, girls were hot. 141 00:14:03,097 --> 00:14:05,888 He was the flame, they were the moths. 142 00:14:07,312 --> 00:14:10,879 But he was more interested to reading and magic. 143 00:14:11,753 --> 00:14:14,048 I think he just wanted to disappear. 144 00:14:15,113 --> 00:14:18,085 And spend all his money at Bert's. 145 00:14:22,004 --> 00:14:23,698 THE MAGIC OF BERT! 146 00:14:24,562 --> 00:14:26,636 Bert was the kind of person... 147 00:14:26,646 --> 00:14:29,511 What your parents tell you to avoid, Sylvia. 148 00:14:30,443 --> 00:14:33,297 Someone who could offer you strange sweets. 149 00:14:36,705 --> 00:14:39,318 Bert seemed anything but magical. 150 00:14:44,805 --> 00:14:46,229 100 STREAMERS 151 00:14:47,992 --> 00:14:51,759 Gilbert's dream was to become a street artist in Paris. 152 00:14:53,251 --> 00:14:54,772 THE AMAZING GILBERT PUDEL 153 00:15:02,946 --> 00:15:04,218 Look, Gracie. 154 00:15:06,831 --> 00:15:09,160 He was always training. 155 00:15:11,480 --> 00:15:12,925 Oh, shit. 156 00:15:17,272 --> 00:15:19,000 And he often got burned. 157 00:15:22,470 --> 00:15:24,987 The sparks left us of scars. 158 00:15:24,997 --> 00:15:26,884 And when we joined arms, 159 00:15:27,801 --> 00:15:29,284 they formed a smiley face. 160 00:15:30,644 --> 00:15:32,221 Oh, look, Gracie! 161 00:15:32,231 --> 00:15:34,776 It was a wonderful feeling. 162 00:15:36,042 --> 00:15:38,075 Our emotions aligned. 163 00:15:39,955 --> 00:15:42,983 Many twins say this, Sylvia, and it's true. 164 00:15:44,496 --> 00:15:46,190 I felt his emotions. 165 00:15:46,791 --> 00:15:48,177 His happiness. 166 00:15:48,187 --> 00:15:49,632 And his sadness. 167 00:15:50,846 --> 00:15:54,222 Which seemed to be the fourth member of our family. 168 00:15:54,928 --> 00:15:57,057 Mother's death left a void. 169 00:15:58,011 --> 00:16:00,471 Dad tried to fill it, but... 170 00:16:01,432 --> 00:16:02,953 He had his problems. 171 00:16:04,175 --> 00:16:07,064 {\an8}MICE AND MEN 172 00:16:05,234 --> 00:16:07,059 Dad was French. 173 00:16:07,069 --> 00:16:10,432 And once he was an animator in Paris. 174 00:16:11,543 --> 00:16:15,854 He made stop motion films with an old video camera. 175 00:16:18,412 --> 00:16:20,361 Sometimes he showed them to us. 176 00:16:28,806 --> 00:16:32,609 To finance his art, he performed on the street. 177 00:16:39,725 --> 00:16:43,603 Mom met him during a holiday won with a magazine. 178 00:16:42,898 --> 00:16:44,322 {\an8}THE AMAZING PERCY PUDEL 179 00:17:16,402 --> 00:17:20,066 They fell in love, and he followed her to Australia. 180 00:17:28,809 --> 00:17:29,908 You idiot! 181 00:17:32,065 --> 00:17:33,254 Hey, watch out! 182 00:17:44,510 --> 00:17:46,380 Mom had just gotten pregnant 183 00:17:46,390 --> 00:17:49,376 when his career stopped for a drunk driver. 184 00:17:50,344 --> 00:17:52,421 He never performed again. 185 00:17:52,431 --> 00:17:54,135 And he became paraplegic. 186 00:17:54,536 --> 00:17:56,569 Then, slowly... 187 00:17:56,579 --> 00:17:58,172 An alcoholic. 188 00:17:58,182 --> 00:18:00,564 Just like the guy who took him under. 189 00:18:02,120 --> 00:18:04,692 Money had always been a problem. 190 00:18:04,702 --> 00:18:07,173 The situation worsened after the accident. 191 00:18:07,968 --> 00:18:11,816 His pension barely covered it wheelchair batteries. 192 00:18:13,842 --> 00:18:17,560 Winning scratch cards remained the only thing that gave him hope. 193 00:18:18,210 --> 00:18:20,083 We found them everywhere. 194 00:18:22,607 --> 00:18:24,444 To make things worse... 195 00:18:24,454 --> 00:18:26,587 He developed sleep apnea. 196 00:18:34,796 --> 00:18:37,046 We had to clap to wake him up. 197 00:18:52,882 --> 00:18:54,841 Despite the difficulties... 198 00:18:55,435 --> 00:18:58,186 Our little family was close. 199 00:18:59,059 --> 00:19:01,658 And there was never a shortage of fun. 200 00:19:01,668 --> 00:19:02,748 Ready! 201 00:19:10,298 --> 00:19:14,639 It was our happiest day when we went on a roller coaster. 202 00:19:17,625 --> 00:19:19,063 It was scary. 203 00:19:20,620 --> 00:19:22,943 Scary because they were a hundred years old. 204 00:19:25,943 --> 00:19:27,588 Dad felt alive. 205 00:19:28,134 --> 00:19:29,876 Free from his body. 206 00:19:36,885 --> 00:19:38,486 At the time of his death... 207 00:19:38,496 --> 00:19:42,413 He said he wanted his ashes were released on the roller coaster. 208 00:19:43,339 --> 00:19:45,724 The day improved on the way back 209 00:19:45,734 --> 00:19:49,028 when Gilbert found a scratch card on the ground. 210 00:19:49,038 --> 00:19:50,819 We won 20 dollars! 211 00:19:51,710 --> 00:19:53,805 So dad bought 20 more. 212 00:19:55,404 --> 00:19:56,911 Too bad, dad. 213 00:19:58,404 --> 00:20:00,990 He hated that we had to take care of him. 214 00:20:03,629 --> 00:20:04,987 I suppose... 215 00:20:04,997 --> 00:20:07,862 That his cage was his body. 216 00:20:08,401 --> 00:20:11,212 His glass wasn't neither full nor empty. 217 00:20:11,222 --> 00:20:13,046 It was just a glass. 218 00:20:14,644 --> 00:20:17,464 {\an8}PERCY'S PROPERTY DO NOT TOUCH! 219 00:20:15,308 --> 00:20:19,123 Knitting and black candies they were his other addictions. 220 00:20:20,022 --> 00:20:22,414 He's the one who made mine snail hat. 221 00:20:22,424 --> 00:20:26,048 He made the eyes with his own old juggling balls. 222 00:20:27,047 --> 00:20:29,010 Candy made him the black tongue 223 00:20:29,020 --> 00:20:32,023 and his breath always smelled of anise. 224 00:20:32,466 --> 00:20:33,794 Look, Gracie! 225 00:20:33,804 --> 00:20:37,312 We put them in his head while he pretended to sleep. 226 00:20:37,322 --> 00:20:39,885 He always let us do it things like this. 227 00:20:44,838 --> 00:20:47,879 We could have done that that we wanted, Sylvia. 228 00:20:50,603 --> 00:20:54,374 It said "Childhood is the season better than life 229 00:20:54,384 --> 00:20:58,203 It never lasts long enough but everyone deserves one." 230 00:21:02,254 --> 00:21:05,818 He was so proud that Gilbert wanted become a street artist. 231 00:21:06,483 --> 00:21:08,017 Follow in his footsteps. 232 00:21:13,712 --> 00:21:16,607 That evening, we took out mom's jewelry box 233 00:21:16,617 --> 00:21:19,234 and we sang until we were exhausted. 234 00:21:40,168 --> 00:21:41,039 Nice. 235 00:21:41,049 --> 00:21:44,111 Later, Dad took it out his old video camera 236 00:21:44,121 --> 00:21:46,389 and gave me some advice on how to animate. 237 00:21:51,062 --> 00:21:54,207 I wanted to become an animator just like him. 238 00:21:57,228 --> 00:22:00,301 To end on a high note the day, we challenged each other 239 00:22:00,311 --> 00:22:03,437 to see who he would create the best hairstyle. 240 00:22:06,122 --> 00:22:07,200 I won. 241 00:22:10,949 --> 00:22:13,127 I remember the tranquility of that evening. 242 00:22:13,265 --> 00:22:15,076 {\an8}FUROR 243 00:22:14,772 --> 00:22:17,679 With the wonderful memories of that day... 244 00:22:15,086 --> 00:22:17,433 {\an8}A FASTER 245 00:22:17,443 --> 00:22:19,119 {\an8}MEMORIES OF A GEISHA 246 00:22:17,689 --> 00:22:19,473 Fresh in our minds. 247 00:22:21,430 --> 00:22:22,633 A day 248 00:22:23,075 --> 00:22:24,361 so precious... 249 00:22:26,131 --> 00:22:27,541 But fleeting. 250 00:22:53,850 --> 00:22:55,881 Despite our applause... 251 00:22:56,836 --> 00:22:58,135 This time... 252 00:22:58,909 --> 00:23:00,893 Dad never woke up again. 253 00:23:11,855 --> 00:23:14,178 We couldn't afford a funeral, 254 00:23:14,717 --> 00:23:17,040 and dad was cremated by the government. 255 00:23:18,125 --> 00:23:21,139 They gave us his ashes in a cardboard box. 256 00:23:22,480 --> 00:23:25,175 I put them in his candy jar. 257 00:23:24,643 --> 00:23:27,394 {\an8}RIP PERCY PUDEL "BEST DAD" 258 00:23:26,060 --> 00:23:27,574 He would have liked it. 259 00:23:37,135 --> 00:23:39,686 Social services came to take us away. 260 00:23:39,696 --> 00:23:42,534 Come on, you two, let's go. 261 00:23:43,985 --> 00:23:47,738 And they sent us into two families foster carers in two different states. 262 00:23:51,075 --> 00:23:54,510 We had no relatives, and no one wanted to adopt twins. 263 00:23:55,015 --> 00:23:57,448 Especially strange ones like us. 264 00:24:06,274 --> 00:24:08,099 Take care of it, Gilbert. 265 00:24:17,052 --> 00:24:19,539 Come on, say hello. 266 00:24:20,119 --> 00:24:21,405 Hi, Gracie. 267 00:24:22,760 --> 00:24:24,004 Hello, Gilbert. 268 00:24:24,695 --> 00:24:27,751 "LET'S UNITE PEOPLE" 269 00:24:30,301 --> 00:24:33,830 That was the last time that I saw my brother 270 00:24:33,840 --> 00:24:37,676 Last I heard its smell of burnt matches. 271 00:24:43,444 --> 00:24:47,100 We have never been able to shed Dad's ashes on the roller coaster. 272 00:24:55,212 --> 00:24:59,304 Our lives have been taken, upside down and upside down, Sylvia. 273 00:25:00,635 --> 00:25:03,583 We had no other choice if not move forward. 274 00:25:03,593 --> 00:25:04,672 And up. 275 00:25:05,252 --> 00:25:06,358 And to the side. 276 00:25:11,190 --> 00:25:14,618 They sent me to live with one childless couple in Canberra, 277 00:25:12,427 --> 00:25:16,256 {\an8}WELCOME TO CANBERRA, THE SAFEST CITY IN AUSTRALIA! 278 00:25:15,240 --> 00:25:18,489 Which had won the prize Safest City for three years in a row. 279 00:25:16,266 --> 00:25:19,132 {\an8}ATTENTION! THIS SIGN IT HAS POINTED CORNERS 280 00:25:20,324 --> 00:25:23,047 Someone was wearing a helmet also for driving. 281 00:25:26,225 --> 00:25:32,504 {\an8}ELVIS SHAPE POTATO FOUND 282 00:25:29,214 --> 00:25:32,504 At the time, Canberra wasn't the exciting place it is now 283 00:25:35,886 --> 00:25:39,964 I suppose the word "settled" doesn't best describe how I felt. 284 00:25:41,102 --> 00:25:43,659 "Traumatized" is more accurate. 285 00:25:46,175 --> 00:25:49,203 The separation from Gilbert it made me anxious. 286 00:25:51,232 --> 00:25:53,748 But you and your brothers, Sylvia, 287 00:25:53,758 --> 00:25:55,559 You made me feel better. 288 00:25:58,912 --> 00:26:00,177 Adorable. 289 00:26:01,836 --> 00:26:03,605 My new adoptive parents, 290 00:26:03,615 --> 00:26:05,472 Ian and Narelle, 291 00:26:05,482 --> 00:26:07,546 They were quite pleasant. 292 00:26:08,735 --> 00:26:11,797 They were accountants in one company that made traffic lights. 293 00:26:12,101 --> 00:26:14,271 {\an8}TRAFFIC LIGHTS DEPARTMENT 294 00:26:13,677 --> 00:26:16,940 They were well-intentioned, and they loved self-help books. 295 00:26:14,396 --> 00:26:16,290 {\an8}HOW TO GET BETTER FAST 296 00:26:19,892 --> 00:26:21,592 - Good morning! - HI!! 297 00:26:22,781 --> 00:26:27,247 They believed that a good one dose of self-esteem would cure everything. 298 00:26:27,700 --> 00:26:29,387 {\an8}AWARD FOR MOST BRAVE GIRL 299 00:26:28,405 --> 00:26:31,612 Every week they did a new certificate. 300 00:26:31,308 --> 00:26:34,605 {\an8}PRICER HANDS, BETTER HAIR, BEST HAT, SHINY SHOES 301 00:26:31,622 --> 00:26:34,640 Our little girl. We are so proud. 302 00:26:35,808 --> 00:26:39,119 Look at this, what a work of hands! 303 00:26:39,129 --> 00:26:41,549 On the weekend they played volleyball. 304 00:26:43,304 --> 00:26:45,184 Gracie, can you get us the ball? 305 00:26:45,194 --> 00:26:47,784 They were trying to get me to play too. 306 00:26:50,260 --> 00:26:51,545 Here we are. 307 00:26:54,089 --> 00:26:55,555 Get it! 308 00:26:56,681 --> 00:26:57,786 Oh no! 309 00:26:59,141 --> 00:27:01,174 Ian, what happened to her? 310 00:27:01,184 --> 00:27:03,330 Are you okay, baby? Baby! 311 00:27:03,707 --> 00:27:05,172 It's turning blue! 312 00:27:05,182 --> 00:27:06,997 Sometimes I faked asthma attacks. 313 00:27:07,007 --> 00:27:09,721 - Hey, Narelle, get the inhaler! - Ok. 314 00:27:09,731 --> 00:27:13,774 I felt guilty lying, but sports were my allergy. 315 00:27:13,784 --> 00:27:17,217 - Are you okay, little one? - Breathe darling, breathe! 316 00:27:25,292 --> 00:27:28,499 Their favorite color was beige. 317 00:27:31,334 --> 00:27:34,016 They also had gods beige guinea pigs. 318 00:27:34,500 --> 00:27:37,265 Okay, we're going out, honey. 319 00:27:37,997 --> 00:27:40,002 - See you later! - HI! 320 00:27:41,417 --> 00:27:43,856 On Saturdays they went to special parties. 321 00:27:43,866 --> 00:27:46,933 - Are you ready, love? - I can't wait, baby. 322 00:27:49,476 --> 00:27:51,377 They were swingers, Sylvia. 323 00:27:52,610 --> 00:27:53,675 Daryl! 324 00:27:59,598 --> 00:28:03,434 I didn't know what it meant at the time. 325 00:28:06,669 --> 00:28:09,319 I found myself in the new school predictably bad. 326 00:28:09,329 --> 00:28:10,812 Grace Pudel! 327 00:28:10,822 --> 00:28:12,464 Stop fantasizing. 328 00:28:15,989 --> 00:28:18,028 I tried to make friends. 329 00:28:19,010 --> 00:28:20,752 RABBIT FACE 330 00:28:20,890 --> 00:28:23,904 But Gilbert wasn't there to break his fingers. 331 00:28:23,914 --> 00:28:25,632 So... 332 00:28:25,642 --> 00:28:27,824 I endured the abuse in silence. 333 00:28:27,834 --> 00:28:31,138 I would come home and play with my clay friends. 334 00:28:32,652 --> 00:28:35,200 I missed Gilbert like crazy. 335 00:28:35,490 --> 00:28:36,980 We wrote letters to each other 336 00:28:36,990 --> 00:28:40,606 And I saved every penny to be able to go and visit him. 337 00:28:42,502 --> 00:28:46,468 They sent him to live with a family of fruit growers near Perth. 338 00:28:48,453 --> 00:28:51,106 Family happened to me best, Sylvia. 339 00:28:51,396 --> 00:28:53,439 He hated his. 340 00:28:55,610 --> 00:28:57,013 "Dear Gracie, 341 00:28:57,023 --> 00:29:00,510 “my new parents Ruth and Owen are disturbing, 342 00:29:00,856 --> 00:29:02,971 "and they pray in a strange way. 343 00:29:11,645 --> 00:29:14,610 "They make me pray four times a day. 344 00:29:15,627 --> 00:29:19,912 "They said if I pray hard enough the pain of dad's death will disappear. 345 00:29:21,173 --> 00:29:24,685 "I'm really old fashioned and not they don't even have a telephone. 346 00:29:21,256 --> 00:29:23,053 {\an8}CHILD JESUS IS WATCHING 347 00:29:25,936 --> 00:29:28,701 "We have to have everyone magnets on you. 348 00:29:30,125 --> 00:29:32,738 “They think they maintain our auras balanced. 349 00:29:32,748 --> 00:29:35,119 "And may they protect us from the devil. 350 00:29:36,764 --> 00:29:39,819 “Ruth is obsessed with his poor budgies. 351 00:29:41,540 --> 00:29:44,395 I think he loves them more than his own children." 352 00:29:48,370 --> 00:29:50,568 Venerate the apple! 353 00:29:50,578 --> 00:29:53,665 “They founded their own church and their school. 354 00:29:54,992 --> 00:29:57,315 Owen is the shepherd." 355 00:29:58,289 --> 00:30:00,128 Purify your soul! 356 00:30:04,858 --> 00:30:09,310 Cast out demons and venerate the fruit! 357 00:30:18,290 --> 00:30:21,940 "He has stomach ulcers, for which he blames the devil. 358 00:30:20,378 --> 00:30:22,465 {\an8}ANTI-ACID TABLETS 359 00:30:30,755 --> 00:30:33,555 "My new brothers they're all idiots. 360 00:30:34,606 --> 00:30:35,836 {\an8}TEAM JESUS 361 00:30:35,007 --> 00:30:37,730 One of them always stares at me." 362 00:30:42,673 --> 00:30:45,113 Venerate Baby Jesus! 363 00:30:45,262 --> 00:30:48,635 GARDEN OF EDEN APPLE ORCHARD 364 00:30:48,929 --> 00:30:52,026 "I have to work in the orchard after school. 365 00:30:52,454 --> 00:30:54,901 "Brothers do the best jobs. 366 00:30:57,569 --> 00:31:00,890 "Ruth said that to be a good fruit grower 367 00:31:00,900 --> 00:31:04,277 "I have to start at the bottom and work hard to get to the top. 368 00:31:06,300 --> 00:31:08,208 I'd rather eat glass." 369 00:31:14,140 --> 00:31:16,324 "Anyway, they can everyone go to hell. 370 00:31:16,334 --> 00:31:19,352 "because as soon as I'm enough big and I will have money 371 00:31:19,362 --> 00:31:21,025 "I'll come get you. 372 00:31:21,816 --> 00:31:24,899 "I'll cross that huge one and scorching desert. 373 00:31:25,659 --> 00:31:27,622 "We will escape to Paris. 374 00:31:27,632 --> 00:31:29,489 "I will become a fire eater. 375 00:31:31,334 --> 00:31:33,794 "And you will become one very good animator! 376 00:31:37,351 --> 00:31:39,661 MAGNIFICENT GRACIE! 377 00:31:42,456 --> 00:31:44,156 It will be fantastic." 378 00:31:54,113 --> 00:31:57,223 FIVE YEARS LATER... 379 00:31:59,607 --> 00:32:01,612 Gilbert's letters they gave me hope. 380 00:32:02,249 --> 00:32:04,502 So I tried to move forward, 381 00:32:02,373 --> 00:32:05,083 {\an8}CANBERRA LIBRARY IT MAKES AUSTRALIANS SMARTER 382 00:32:04,896 --> 00:32:07,869 crushing the sorrows under your shoes 383 00:32:07,879 --> 00:32:09,852 as the years passed. 384 00:32:10,350 --> 00:32:11,656 To pass the time, 385 00:32:11,666 --> 00:32:15,085 I started working as a volunteer in the local library. 386 00:32:16,278 --> 00:32:20,952 One of my tasks was to erase the obscene drawings of children. 387 00:32:18,552 --> 00:32:20,101 {\an8}MALE ANATOMY 388 00:32:22,541 --> 00:32:25,465 That's where I met Pinky for the first time. 389 00:32:23,066 --> 00:32:24,753 {\an8}SEX TRAM 390 00:32:27,736 --> 00:32:31,012 I saw her put some books in the garbage can. 391 00:32:28,458 --> 00:32:29,744 {\an8}MISERY 392 00:32:31,374 --> 00:32:32,605 {\an8}JESUS ATE MY CAT 393 00:32:31,593 --> 00:32:34,081 He thought it was the hole to return the books, 394 00:32:34,091 --> 00:32:36,123 and he had been doing it for months. 395 00:32:37,572 --> 00:32:38,844 Excuse me. 396 00:32:40,623 --> 00:32:42,783 She was mortified when I explained it to her. 397 00:32:43,723 --> 00:32:45,002 Oh, damn. 398 00:32:45,368 --> 00:32:47,719 Don't worry, I won't tell anyone. 399 00:32:48,407 --> 00:32:49,541 Thank you dear. 400 00:32:50,066 --> 00:32:52,029 May God bless you. 401 00:32:52,638 --> 00:32:53,868 What is your name? 402 00:32:54,462 --> 00:32:55,679 Grace Pudel. 403 00:32:57,249 --> 00:32:58,507 I'm Pinky. 404 00:32:58,517 --> 00:32:59,848 Only Pinky. 405 00:32:59,858 --> 00:33:01,603 Like Cher. 406 00:33:01,613 --> 00:33:03,262 Or Liberace. 407 00:33:04,321 --> 00:33:05,696 Oh Prince. 408 00:33:06,436 --> 00:33:07,998 Casanova. 409 00:33:08,841 --> 00:33:09,961 Donald Duck. 410 00:33:11,523 --> 00:33:14,143 They call me Pinky, that's why. 411 00:33:14,153 --> 00:33:16,632 I lost it while dancing in Barcelona. 412 00:33:27,532 --> 00:33:29,564 Why are you dressed as an ant? 413 00:33:33,836 --> 00:33:35,541 No, I'm a snail. 414 00:33:37,642 --> 00:33:38,748 Fun. 415 00:33:39,481 --> 00:33:41,955 I once thought I was a pigeon. 416 00:33:43,891 --> 00:33:46,013 She was really eccentric. 417 00:33:46,023 --> 00:33:49,552 And it smelled like ginger and thrift store. 418 00:33:53,509 --> 00:33:54,726 Fuckhead! 419 00:33:55,901 --> 00:33:58,127 He always wore corduroy. 420 00:33:58,137 --> 00:34:01,334 And his face had more folds of his jacket. 421 00:34:01,344 --> 00:34:05,277 It was difficult to understand where it ended the fabric and where the skin began. 422 00:34:05,287 --> 00:34:07,178 Apart from you, Sylvia, 423 00:34:07,188 --> 00:34:10,323 she was my first real friend. 424 00:34:10,801 --> 00:34:13,006 My only true friend. 425 00:34:15,260 --> 00:34:17,610 He had lived a fantastic life. 426 00:34:17,620 --> 00:34:20,115 I was thinking of making a film about it sooner or later. 427 00:34:21,304 --> 00:34:22,936 He saw the Northern Lights. 428 00:34:24,512 --> 00:34:26,572 It floated in the Dead Sea. 429 00:34:31,108 --> 00:34:34,046 She was a dancer exotic in a diner. 430 00:34:36,268 --> 00:34:38,079 TITS AND CUTTLETS 431 00:34:40,968 --> 00:34:43,167 He won a bee-shaving competition. 432 00:34:44,397 --> 00:34:45,779 It's my turn. 433 00:34:46,284 --> 00:34:49,035 He took a bath with a snow monkey. 434 00:34:50,528 --> 00:34:52,989 She made love to John Denver. 435 00:34:53,735 --> 00:34:55,159 By helicopter. 436 00:34:55,169 --> 00:34:57,993 Take me home, country road! 437 00:35:01,178 --> 00:35:02,422 And once... 438 00:35:03,763 --> 00:35:06,197 He played ping pong with Fidel Castro. 439 00:35:10,358 --> 00:35:11,706 She never got sick. 440 00:35:11,716 --> 00:35:14,554 His secret of longevity it was giving coffee enemas 441 00:35:14,564 --> 00:35:17,656 and drink a glass a day of ginger wine. 442 00:35:19,683 --> 00:35:21,799 Lost two husbands. 443 00:35:21,809 --> 00:35:26,568 The first, Hector, died only once week after their wedding. 444 00:35:26,578 --> 00:35:28,037 Be careful, darling. 445 00:35:31,757 --> 00:35:32,876 Curse. 446 00:35:33,388 --> 00:35:37,231 RIP HECTOR SANTAMARIA "A SHORT AND SHARP LIFE" 447 00:35:37,977 --> 00:35:40,189 Her second husband, Bill, 448 00:35:40,199 --> 00:35:41,547 he was a postman. 449 00:35:43,358 --> 00:35:45,902 He wrote her messages of love in the mail. 450 00:35:47,340 --> 00:35:50,891 Roses are red, for the violets I stagger, 451 00:35:50,901 --> 00:35:54,651 I will be your letter, you are my stamp. 452 00:35:54,661 --> 00:35:58,539 I am the sky, you are the sea, 453 00:35:58,549 --> 00:36:03,336 I would like to sink between your thighs. 454 00:36:03,613 --> 00:36:05,092 Smile! 455 00:36:07,946 --> 00:36:11,181 I'm ready for my first Slowly, Mr. DeMille. 456 00:36:13,095 --> 00:36:15,998 They had just started a hike across Australia... 457 00:36:16,008 --> 00:36:18,155 A little to the left, honey. 458 00:36:18,165 --> 00:36:19,765 When nature struck. 459 00:36:23,263 --> 00:36:25,019 No! No! 460 00:36:27,161 --> 00:36:28,284 Curse. 461 00:36:30,279 --> 00:36:37,088 RIP BILL CLARKE "SHIPPED TO PARADISE" 462 00:36:37,433 --> 00:36:38,746 Be careful, children. 463 00:36:39,532 --> 00:36:41,497 She was a true fighter. 464 00:36:41,507 --> 00:36:43,529 And he did a lot of jobs. 465 00:36:44,829 --> 00:36:46,087 Fuckhead! 466 00:36:46,957 --> 00:36:48,325 Dickhead! 467 00:36:48,335 --> 00:36:50,111 {\an8}PRINCIPAL'S OFFICE 468 00:36:48,335 --> 00:36:50,510 But they never lasted long. 469 00:36:50,520 --> 00:36:51,726 She's fired. 470 00:36:53,355 --> 00:36:55,170 On his 80th birthday 471 00:36:55,180 --> 00:36:58,498 Hegot a job as promoter of chopped pineapple. 472 00:36:58,139 --> 00:36:59,106 {\an8}TASTINGS 473 00:37:01,927 --> 00:37:04,762 God, he looked amazing sense of humor. 474 00:37:06,852 --> 00:37:09,382 He drove the postal truck of her late husband, 475 00:37:09,392 --> 00:37:11,532 and he once told me he wanted to die 476 00:37:11,542 --> 00:37:15,274 peacefully in sleep as his cousin who drove the bus, 477 00:37:15,284 --> 00:37:17,970 not screaming in terror like its passengers. 478 00:37:18,883 --> 00:37:21,072 I don't know if he was joking or not. 479 00:37:21,082 --> 00:37:23,049 It was difficult to understand with her. 480 00:37:25,177 --> 00:37:27,354 His house was fantastic. 481 00:37:30,824 --> 00:37:32,871 It smelled like popcorn and mothballs. 482 00:37:38,723 --> 00:37:41,986 He had a huge collection of trophies. 483 00:37:41,996 --> 00:37:44,910 He soon discovered that they were other people's trophies 484 00:37:44,920 --> 00:37:47,393 that he had found in second-hand shops. 485 00:37:46,639 --> 00:37:49,515 {\an8}POLISHING TROPHIES, FINDING COOKIE BOX 486 00:37:49,525 --> 00:37:53,601 {\an8}CALL FIDEL, BUY MORE POST-ITS, THAW RIBS 487 00:37:52,197 --> 00:37:54,899 There were post-it notes everywhere. 488 00:37:54,909 --> 00:37:57,291 He had a terrible memory. 489 00:37:59,727 --> 00:38:03,460 She was terrified of Alzheimer's, and started tap dancing. 490 00:38:03,470 --> 00:38:06,135 He said it kept dementia away. 491 00:38:09,432 --> 00:38:16,275 {\an8}BISCUITS 492 00:38:09,961 --> 00:38:11,385 He didn't believe in banks 493 00:38:11,395 --> 00:38:13,638 and kept his savings in an old box. 494 00:38:13,648 --> 00:38:16,624 He said they were in there also its secrets. 495 00:38:17,371 --> 00:38:18,781 You know, Gracie, 496 00:38:18,791 --> 00:38:22,868 in biscuit tins there are rarely biscuits. 497 00:38:23,878 --> 00:38:25,910 I've never seen it his mysterious box. 498 00:38:25,920 --> 00:38:28,993 He always hid it in a different place. 499 00:38:29,283 --> 00:38:31,508 And often he didn't remember where. 500 00:38:33,377 --> 00:38:36,391 His house was also full of seedlings. 501 00:38:37,331 --> 00:38:41,268 Later he confessed to me which were marijuana 502 00:38:42,386 --> 00:38:45,566 He loved preparing little men of ginger with grass, 503 00:38:45,576 --> 00:38:50,502 because he said they relieved his arthritis. 504 00:38:50,512 --> 00:38:52,869 He also loved gardening. 505 00:38:52,879 --> 00:38:55,164 Especially when he felt sad. 506 00:38:55,174 --> 00:38:58,288 He called them his "weeping plants". 507 00:38:57,920 --> 00:39:00,250 {\an8}PINKY'S CRYING PLANTS 508 00:38:58,298 --> 00:39:02,100 He wanted his ashes to come scattered among its weeping plants. 509 00:39:02,110 --> 00:39:04,373 Return to nature. 510 00:39:02,176 --> 00:39:04,382 {\an8}POTATOES, CARROTS 511 00:39:04,383 --> 00:39:07,179 Fertilize your vegetables. 512 00:39:04,393 --> 00:39:06,450 {\an8}ONIONS, CABBAGE, PEAS, CARROTS 513 00:39:08,219 --> 00:39:10,608 Gardening fixes everything. 514 00:39:17,951 --> 00:39:20,067 She also liked to play mini golf. 515 00:39:20,077 --> 00:39:22,474 And she had built her own camp. 516 00:39:34,798 --> 00:39:35,904 Hole in one! 517 00:39:37,387 --> 00:39:40,304 {\an8}REST HOME 518 00:39:37,936 --> 00:39:40,708 But the thing that made it Truly incredible Pinky 519 00:39:40,718 --> 00:39:42,256 that's what he did on Mondays. 520 00:39:42,266 --> 00:39:43,415 Courage. 521 00:39:43,828 --> 00:39:47,070 He visited lonely people and held his hand. 522 00:39:47,969 --> 00:39:52,946 He said the thing they had most of what the elderly needed was human contact. 523 00:39:52,956 --> 00:39:55,396 He sat next to them in silence. 524 00:39:56,267 --> 00:39:58,340 Such a simple thing, 525 00:39:58,350 --> 00:40:00,193 but so comforting. 526 00:40:02,873 --> 00:40:06,164 Even a ginger man the grass definitely helped. 527 00:40:05,790 --> 00:40:07,394 {\an8}HOLD ON 528 00:40:10,959 --> 00:40:15,079 Pinky told me he never could hold hands with his parents. 529 00:40:15,962 --> 00:40:17,787 He never told me why. 530 00:40:18,229 --> 00:40:19,805 Of his childhood... 531 00:40:20,352 --> 00:40:21,630 He never spoke. 532 00:40:25,204 --> 00:40:26,310 You know... 533 00:40:26,834 --> 00:40:29,820 In life you don't have to never look to the past. 534 00:40:30,387 --> 00:40:32,792 We must live looking forward. 535 00:40:33,634 --> 00:40:36,689 It was the jewel in the middle to the Canberra landfill. 536 00:40:37,352 --> 00:40:39,965 He had done so much things in his life 537 00:40:39,975 --> 00:40:42,938 and I hadn't done anything. 538 00:40:45,004 --> 00:40:48,478 Pinky's friendship helped to ease my sadness. 539 00:40:48,488 --> 00:40:50,188 The sense of emptiness. 540 00:40:51,202 --> 00:40:54,437 I guess it was the medicine that I needed. 541 00:40:54,447 --> 00:40:56,234 A supplement of hope. 542 00:40:59,546 --> 00:41:00,749 Damn it. 543 00:41:00,759 --> 00:41:03,161 It'll be better next time, Gracie. 544 00:41:06,009 --> 00:41:08,781 The years flew by, Sylvia. 545 00:41:12,412 --> 00:41:13,809 Apart from Pinky, 546 00:41:14,348 --> 00:41:18,343 Gilbert's letters were the only thing which confirmed my existence. 547 00:41:29,965 --> 00:41:32,550 I missed Gilbert like crazy. 548 00:41:55,044 --> 00:41:57,284 {\an8}CANBERRA SCOUT HALL 549 00:41:57,975 --> 00:42:00,657 {\an8}CANBERRA LAUGHTER CLUB 550 00:41:58,431 --> 00:42:01,597 Ian and Narelle were still obsessed from my mental health, 551 00:42:01,607 --> 00:42:04,251 and they sent me to some self-help lessons. 552 00:42:02,862 --> 00:42:04,776 {\an8}YOU ARE YOUR HERO! 553 00:42:04,261 --> 00:42:06,840 Which should have increase my endorphins 554 00:42:06,850 --> 00:42:10,324 balance my chakra and clean up my third eye. 555 00:42:07,182 --> 00:42:08,461 I'M CRAIG "HEALER OF HEARTS" 556 00:42:10,334 --> 00:42:13,396 Ready, set, go! 557 00:42:34,398 --> 00:42:36,036 Oh, Craig. 558 00:42:36,817 --> 00:42:38,573 Heal me, heal me. 559 00:42:38,891 --> 00:42:40,923 - I'll heal you, Vicki. - Oh, Craig! 560 00:42:43,979 --> 00:42:45,438 Oh, Craig! 561 00:42:47,871 --> 00:42:51,216 A part of me died in those lessons, Sylvia. 562 00:43:04,532 --> 00:43:08,265 {\an8}YOU ARE YOUR HERO! 563 00:43:05,815 --> 00:43:09,748 Self-help was just one superficial quick fix. 564 00:43:09,758 --> 00:43:11,790 It didn't really work. 565 00:43:12,323 --> 00:43:15,848 I just wish Earth stopped to get off. 566 00:43:18,026 --> 00:43:20,991 Puberty arrived and he brought his gifts with him. 567 00:43:22,494 --> 00:43:24,934 I would have liked to have a boyfriend. 568 00:43:32,282 --> 00:43:35,697 Things didn't improve when Pinky convinced me to get a perm. 569 00:43:32,461 --> 00:43:35,251 {\an8}HAIRDRESSERS 570 00:43:35,261 --> 00:43:39,671 {\an8}PERMANENT 2 FOR THE PRICE OF 1 571 00:44:04,016 --> 00:44:05,606 Nice hairdo. 572 00:44:14,365 --> 00:44:15,700 Fuckhead! 573 00:44:17,359 --> 00:44:18,852 Don't do that, darling. 574 00:44:18,862 --> 00:44:20,262 Ignore it. 575 00:44:20,649 --> 00:44:22,695 I think we're fantastic. 576 00:44:22,999 --> 00:44:25,156 Thank God Pinky was there. 577 00:44:25,166 --> 00:44:27,801 It had become mine real adoptive parent. 578 00:44:26,602 --> 00:44:28,303 {\an8}FAIRSTAR THE FUN SHIP 579 00:44:27,811 --> 00:44:31,920 Especially since Ian and Narelle they were no longer very present. 580 00:44:31,930 --> 00:44:35,476 They discovered nudist cruises and they were gone for weeks at a time. 581 00:44:36,706 --> 00:44:38,089 Good morning. 582 00:44:38,099 --> 00:44:39,229 Oh, hello! 583 00:44:46,425 --> 00:44:49,527 I still suffered the loss of my family. 584 00:44:49,537 --> 00:44:54,919 And I kept filling in the blank snail after snail. 585 00:44:57,383 --> 00:44:59,523 If I saw something snaily... 586 00:45:00,007 --> 00:45:01,859 It had to be mine. 587 00:45:03,159 --> 00:45:05,758 My obsession had grown, Sylvia. 588 00:45:06,601 --> 00:45:10,071 My room had become a temple of snails. 589 00:45:10,562 --> 00:45:13,935 I had become a hoarder of snails. 590 00:45:19,956 --> 00:45:22,817 Oh, I missed Gilbert so much. 591 00:45:24,394 --> 00:45:27,121 His letters continued to give me hope. 592 00:45:27,131 --> 00:45:28,921 But it was starting to worry me. 593 00:45:29,829 --> 00:45:32,262 I felt like he wasn't telling me everything. 594 00:45:32,876 --> 00:45:34,017 "Dear Gracie, 595 00:45:34,611 --> 00:45:38,662 Life in the Garden of Eden it's certainly not the Garden of Eden." 596 00:45:38,672 --> 00:45:41,441 Gilbert, get back to work! 597 00:45:41,955 --> 00:45:44,306 "Ruth seemed to be mad at me. 598 00:45:44,983 --> 00:45:46,656 But I don't care." 599 00:45:47,001 --> 00:45:48,273 Sorry, Ruth. 600 00:45:49,296 --> 00:45:53,907 "Oh, and she hates me calling her Ruth instead of mother. 601 00:45:54,578 --> 00:45:57,599 "And he hates that I don't allow Owen to shave my head. 602 00:45:58,615 --> 00:46:01,924 “They make me work hard for a paltry salary. 603 00:45:58,882 --> 00:45:59,947 {\an8}SALARY 604 00:46:03,362 --> 00:46:04,869 {\an8}SAVINGS 605 00:46:04,080 --> 00:46:06,147 "I have no one to talk to. 606 00:46:07,929 --> 00:46:09,741 "I try to be friendly," 607 00:46:09,751 --> 00:46:12,986 "but they are all plagiarized from their strange religion. 608 00:46:14,783 --> 00:46:16,740 The brothers hate me to death." 609 00:46:17,919 --> 00:46:19,228 Fennel! 610 00:46:24,492 --> 00:46:27,471 {\an8}THE HOLY BIBLE 611 00:46:33,191 --> 00:46:35,670 "Owen forces me to read the Bible. 612 00:46:35,680 --> 00:46:38,928 And Ruth forces me to eat meat." 613 00:46:39,401 --> 00:46:40,853 Hello, piggies. 614 00:46:47,226 --> 00:46:48,402 Eat. 615 00:46:48,734 --> 00:46:51,098 "He forbade me to play with fire. 616 00:46:51,762 --> 00:46:55,342 "She's completely crazy, and she's thinking that magic is the devil's vice. 617 00:46:52,640 --> 00:46:55,986 {\an8}BEWARE OF THE DEVIL'S CALL 618 00:46:56,158 --> 00:47:00,769 "Try to attach more and more magnets to me on me to fix my aura. 619 00:47:01,239 --> 00:47:02,746 "But it doesn't matter to me. 620 00:47:04,974 --> 00:47:07,794 "I hide in the back the church to practice. 621 00:47:08,126 --> 00:47:09,675 "With one of the brothers, 622 00:47:10,283 --> 00:47:12,453 "who seems to like me. 623 00:47:13,371 --> 00:47:17,449 “Ruth thinks Lucifer is looking to invade my soul. 624 00:47:19,440 --> 00:47:23,318 They tried to baptize me to cast out the devil." 625 00:47:37,384 --> 00:47:41,541 Immerse yourself and cleanse yourself from demons! 626 00:47:44,928 --> 00:47:47,361 "I pretended to be possessed. 627 00:47:47,371 --> 00:47:50,748 I hid some of the pills Owen's antacid in his pocket." 628 00:47:52,248 --> 00:47:53,727 Oh, my God! 629 00:47:53,737 --> 00:47:55,552 "It was hilarious. 630 00:47:57,833 --> 00:47:59,547 Ben really liked it." 631 00:48:06,273 --> 00:48:08,347 "Ruth always tries to control me. 632 00:48:07,960 --> 00:48:09,218 {\an8 }ANTIHISTAMINIC 633 00:48:09,025 --> 00:48:11,361 He also tried to drug me." 634 00:48:16,920 --> 00:48:18,033 Eat. 635 00:48:34,973 --> 00:48:36,507 "But I'm not stupid. 636 00:48:38,802 --> 00:48:41,083 "I hid the pills on my cheeks. 637 00:48:43,364 --> 00:48:46,598 "Ruth says love of Jesus is not free. 638 00:48:46,999 --> 00:48:49,764 "So the little money that Let's make money, Gracie 639 00:48:49,774 --> 00:48:51,508 They return to Jesus". 640 00:48:51,518 --> 00:48:55,545 Coins for Jesus. Coins for Jesus. 641 00:48:54,079 --> 00:48:56,181 {\an8}FOR JESUS 642 00:49:01,360 --> 00:49:05,328 Coins for Jesus. Coins for Jesus. 643 00:49:05,338 --> 00:49:06,759 Well done, son. 644 00:49:16,589 --> 00:49:17,688 Gilbert! 645 00:49:22,099 --> 00:49:25,417 "And Jesus then gives the money back to Owen." 646 00:49:27,982 --> 00:49:29,465 Thank you, Jesus. 647 00:49:30,235 --> 00:49:31,632 "And his vices." 648 00:49:32,153 --> 00:49:33,940 {\an8}WINE - SPIRITS 649 00:49:34,355 --> 00:49:37,849 Oh, Owen, how are you? The usual? 650 00:49:44,176 --> 00:49:45,489 Good evening. 651 00:49:50,329 --> 00:49:53,529 Coins for Jesus, and whiskey for Owen. 652 00:50:06,768 --> 00:50:08,634 "They are truly hypocrites. 653 00:50:09,201 --> 00:50:10,979 But I made him pay." 654 00:50:11,638 --> 00:50:14,334 You're free, guys. Come on, run away! 655 00:50:21,724 --> 00:50:23,248 "I hate this place." 656 00:50:24,078 --> 00:50:26,843 No! My budgies! 657 00:50:28,429 --> 00:50:29,936 "And I hate her. 658 00:50:31,759 --> 00:50:33,155 "He punished me. 659 00:50:34,123 --> 00:50:35,256 Bad." 660 00:50:43,944 --> 00:50:45,437 Hold on tight! 661 00:50:48,340 --> 00:50:50,939 Sinners must be punished, Gilbert. 662 00:50:51,630 --> 00:50:56,335 Leviticus 24- Watch out for eye, tooth for tooth. 663 00:50:59,040 --> 00:51:03,016 Burn, damned thoughts of pleasure! 664 00:51:03,026 --> 00:51:05,216 - Burn! - "He punished me, 665 00:51:05,226 --> 00:51:07,999 "but I don't care. I'm fine. 666 00:51:09,985 --> 00:51:12,609 "Anyway, I'd better go. 667 00:51:13,996 --> 00:51:16,804 "I'm saving money to run away 668 00:51:14,204 --> 00:51:16,388 {\an8}SAVINGS 669 00:51:16,804 --> 00:51:19,609 "and cross the desert to come and get you. 670 00:51:32,692 --> 00:51:34,440 "Hold on, Gracie. 671 00:51:35,723 --> 00:51:37,617 "It's okay. 672 00:51:39,622 --> 00:51:40,991 "See you soon. 673 00:51:41,405 --> 00:51:42,525 "I hope. 674 00:51:42,912 --> 00:51:45,111 Love, Gilbert." 675 00:51:56,023 --> 00:51:59,341 Finally puberty stopped to torment me, Sylvia. 676 00:52:00,413 --> 00:52:03,318 Our season adolescence was over. 677 00:52:05,861 --> 00:52:08,170 But my life happened even more lonely 678 00:52:08,180 --> 00:52:11,615 when Ian and Narelle retired in a nudist colony in Sweden. 679 00:52:12,887 --> 00:52:15,542 It's a shame we don't have never really tied. 680 00:52:15,552 --> 00:52:18,090 But the family we were managed to form... 681 00:52:18,100 --> 00:52:19,454 It was no longer there. 682 00:52:20,216 --> 00:52:21,806 {\an8}NUDIST COLONY 683 00:52:20,299 --> 00:52:21,832 Is that your foot? 684 00:52:24,852 --> 00:52:26,318 {\an8}CANBERRA LIBRARY 685 00:52:25,944 --> 00:52:29,489 Despite my sorrows, Sylvia, I was trying to stay optimistic. 686 00:52:29,304 --> 00:52:31,695 {\an8}READING IS FIKO 687 00:52:30,347 --> 00:52:32,012 To be more sociable. 688 00:52:34,875 --> 00:52:38,773 I remember there were some interesting people in the library. 689 00:52:40,557 --> 00:52:43,498 But they lived by reflex. 690 00:52:41,802 --> 00:52:43,734 {\an8}MACRAME FOR BEGINNERS 691 00:52:43,744 --> 00:52:45,876 {\an8}MEMOIRS OF A SEXUAL MANIAC 692 00:52:45,769 --> 00:52:48,699 The idea of a boyfriend It seemed like a fantasy. 693 00:52:50,567 --> 00:52:52,874 I felt invisible. 694 00:52:52,884 --> 00:52:54,784 I was starting to fade. 695 00:53:01,494 --> 00:53:04,895 Pinky was the only note of color in my life. 696 00:53:04,905 --> 00:53:06,653 It was still effervescent. 697 00:53:07,336 --> 00:53:11,334 His idea of holding hands became a real charity association. 698 00:53:08,235 --> 00:53:10,295 {\an8}GRANDMA'S HANDS 699 00:53:11,344 --> 00:53:14,611 He had also hired gods unemployed to help. 700 00:53:16,395 --> 00:53:18,213 We went from house to house. 701 00:53:19,281 --> 00:53:20,895 From hand to hand. 702 00:53:30,735 --> 00:53:34,606 I believe that over time the loss of mine family had me somehow... 703 00:53:34,616 --> 00:53:36,009 Blocked. 704 00:53:40,575 --> 00:53:44,978 I thought it was safer to live in a fantasy world. 705 00:53:42,296 --> 00:53:45,891 {\an8}THE RED-BREASTED PIRATE 706 00:53:46,914 --> 00:53:50,996 Oh, Dad would be disappointed if he knew that I resorted to cheap novels. 707 00:53:49,494 --> 00:53:52,314 {\an8}BEYOND HEAVY BREASTS 708 00:53:51,853 --> 00:53:55,591 Now it was just me, some sexy pirates, 709 00:53:55,601 --> 00:53:57,970 and some crazy guinea pigs 710 00:53:57,980 --> 00:54:00,901 that they were making fun of of my virginity. 711 00:54:00,911 --> 00:54:03,745 The stereotype was now complete, Sylvia. 712 00:54:03,755 --> 00:54:06,724 I had become a loveless recluse. 713 00:54:06,734 --> 00:54:09,358 And pig hair with which I was covered? 714 00:54:09,368 --> 00:54:11,685 The glitter of lonely people. 715 00:54:17,239 --> 00:54:19,354 When the boredom got worse... 716 00:54:20,875 --> 00:54:24,027 I discovered I had new impulses. 717 00:54:26,680 --> 00:54:29,763 I added kleptomania to my list of hobbies. 718 00:54:31,422 --> 00:54:35,542 Buy, accumulate, and now steal, 719 00:54:35,552 --> 00:54:38,342 they became a sop and a distraction 720 00:54:38,352 --> 00:54:40,622 from my monotonous world 721 00:54:41,940 --> 00:54:45,631 which was slowly starting to collapse. 722 00:54:50,734 --> 00:54:53,292 I lost three little pigs of India that evening. 723 00:54:56,816 --> 00:54:58,807 I cremated them in the garden. 724 00:54:59,968 --> 00:55:02,723 And I put the ashes in small jars. 725 00:55:01,253 --> 00:55:05,567 {\an8}PARSLEY - BASIL - CINNAMON 726 00:55:02,733 --> 00:55:06,783 It looked like I had started a collection of guinea pig spices. 727 00:55:05,577 --> 00:55:07,846 {\an8}THE PLAYFUL SCOTTISH 728 00:55:10,269 --> 00:55:13,158 My life had become really pathetic. 729 00:55:13,925 --> 00:55:16,848 And I had lost control of the situation. 730 00:55:18,459 --> 00:55:21,373 I shook hands alone, patiently 731 00:55:21,383 --> 00:55:23,782 waiting for Gilbert come and save me. 732 00:55:24,542 --> 00:55:26,669 While I continued to hide 733 00:55:26,679 --> 00:55:29,396 in the safety of mine snail fort. 734 00:55:30,654 --> 00:55:32,278 Alone. 735 00:55:32,288 --> 00:55:33,827 Without love. 736 00:55:33,837 --> 00:55:35,596 And imprisoned. 737 00:55:45,638 --> 00:55:48,693 But just when I was evaluating the idea of becoming a nun... 738 00:55:49,970 --> 00:55:53,937 From the confusion of my life a glimmer of light arrived. 739 00:56:01,889 --> 00:56:03,520 His name was Ken. 740 00:56:07,357 --> 00:56:10,565 And he was obsessed from his blowing leaves. 741 00:56:13,328 --> 00:56:17,917 It just sat there, more appetizing of a Chiko Roll. 742 00:56:24,196 --> 00:56:25,270 But hello. 743 00:56:26,858 --> 00:56:27,970 Hey. 744 00:56:28,374 --> 00:56:30,145 I could... maybe... 745 00:56:30,849 --> 00:56:33,934 He wanted to know if he could sweep away my leaves. 746 00:56:34,471 --> 00:56:38,319 His presence gave me hot flushes of heat and sweaty underwear. 747 00:56:38,903 --> 00:56:40,870 It was love at first sight. 748 00:56:42,004 --> 00:56:44,546 He was an Adonis from Canberra. 749 00:56:45,358 --> 00:56:46,505 A Cadone. 750 00:56:53,408 --> 00:56:55,800 He was a microwave oven repairman 751 00:56:55,810 --> 00:56:59,591 and told me it was extremely superficial and one-dimensional. 752 00:57:00,393 --> 00:57:04,112 He told me that if it had been a onion and removed the layers, 753 00:57:04,122 --> 00:57:06,330 you would have only found more onion. 754 00:57:07,174 --> 00:57:09,054 He had hobbies like me. 755 00:57:09,064 --> 00:57:11,658 He liked to fix broken vases. 756 00:57:12,515 --> 00:57:16,044 It was a Japanese art form called Kintsugi 757 00:57:16,054 --> 00:57:19,956 based on the philosophy that just like the soul 758 00:57:19,966 --> 00:57:22,597 everything can be fixed 759 00:57:22,607 --> 00:57:25,500 and we must celebrate our cracks. 760 00:57:26,112 --> 00:57:30,259 Ken said I was a broken vessel too and he wanted to fix my wounds 761 00:57:30,269 --> 00:57:32,001 and fill my cracks. 762 00:57:32,663 --> 00:57:34,336 {\an8}WATER PARK 763 00:57:35,249 --> 00:57:38,982 He was very thoughtful and he was always thinking of others. 764 00:57:38,992 --> 00:57:42,208 He was a volunteer lifeguard in the local swimming pool. 765 00:57:43,839 --> 00:57:45,028 But hello. 766 00:57:46,300 --> 00:57:48,256 He adored me. 767 00:57:49,127 --> 00:57:52,694 He even built a post for smoothies in my kitchen. 768 00:58:05,364 --> 00:58:07,666 We dated for a month, and then... 769 00:58:07,676 --> 00:58:08,882 What do you think? 770 00:58:08,468 --> 00:58:11,357 {\an8}DO YOU WANT TO MARRY ME? 771 00:58:20,413 --> 00:58:22,625 He said he really loved me. 772 00:58:23,787 --> 00:58:25,742 He loved my quirks. 773 00:58:27,512 --> 00:58:30,194 We celebrated with another smoothie. 774 00:58:30,554 --> 00:58:33,306 He said he would something special. 775 00:58:34,661 --> 00:58:35,866 Cinnamon. 776 00:58:36,308 --> 00:58:37,856 - No! - What is it? 777 00:58:40,484 --> 00:58:42,406 He's my guinea pig. 778 00:58:43,572 --> 00:58:48,623 A normal person would have taken me crazy for keeping those ashes. 779 00:58:48,633 --> 00:58:49,711 But not him. 780 00:58:51,798 --> 00:58:53,847 He loved everything about me. 781 00:58:54,441 --> 00:58:56,812 Even my butt and my fat. 782 00:59:01,221 --> 00:59:02,673 Yes. Fantastic. 783 00:59:02,683 --> 00:59:03,818 Oh, yes. 784 00:59:05,991 --> 00:59:08,438 Yes. Great, Gracie. 785 00:59:08,448 --> 00:59:11,926 He moved in with me, and finally I lost my virginity. 786 00:59:12,452 --> 00:59:14,334 {\an8}SEED CLINIC 787 00:59:14,085 --> 00:59:16,822 We were desperately looking to have a baby. 788 00:59:17,257 --> 00:59:19,642 But Ken discovered he was sterile. 789 00:59:20,168 --> 00:59:22,836 It was because of all those ovens microwave that repaired. 790 00:59:22,846 --> 00:59:24,077 How unfortunate. 791 00:59:25,226 --> 00:59:27,106 But I wasn't too disappointed. 792 00:59:27,535 --> 00:59:30,701 I had everything I could wish, Sylvia. 793 00:59:30,711 --> 00:59:32,553 I had a Cadone, 794 00:59:32,563 --> 00:59:34,524 a flock of guinea pigs, 795 00:59:34,534 --> 00:59:36,953 and a bunch of snails. 796 00:59:36,963 --> 00:59:38,280 Smile, Gracie. 797 00:59:40,303 --> 00:59:43,939 We set the wedding date and we gave Gilbert the good news. 798 00:59:43,794 --> 00:59:45,964 {\an8}DEAR GILBERT, I'M GETTING MARRIED! 799 00:59:48,259 --> 00:59:50,294 Hey Ben, guess what? 800 00:59:55,309 --> 00:59:58,446 Ken sent him money for a plane ticket to Canberra. 801 00:59:58,456 --> 01:00:00,944 I asked Gilbert to accompany me at the altar. 802 01:00:01,663 --> 01:00:04,829 Pinky would have been the flower girl. 803 01:00:07,464 --> 01:00:10,133 We would finally be a family again. 804 01:00:10,143 --> 01:00:12,441 And we would have scattered dad's ashes. 805 01:00:14,766 --> 01:00:17,143 My glass was now overflowing. 806 01:00:17,153 --> 01:00:19,563 And I found positive sides galore. 807 01:00:21,070 --> 01:00:23,130 Gilbert was going to move in with us. 808 01:00:23,140 --> 01:00:24,986 It would arrive the next day! 809 01:00:23,783 --> 01:00:25,390 {\an8}GILBERT IS COMING! 810 01:00:25,400 --> 01:00:27,032 {\an8}NARELLE AND IAN'S LOVE NEST 811 01:00:30,460 --> 01:00:32,698 I had never felt so happy. 812 01:00:30,819 --> 01:00:32,708 {\an8}GILBERT'S ROOM 813 01:00:33,900 --> 01:00:35,283 So optimistic. 814 01:00:37,343 --> 01:00:40,335 {\an8}CANBERRA FILM SCHOOL SIGN UP NOW! 815 01:01:03,219 --> 01:01:04,436 Delivery! 816 01:01:04,878 --> 01:01:06,012 I'll go. 817 01:01:05,611 --> 01:01:06,730 {\an8}CANBERRA COURIERS 818 01:01:19,866 --> 01:01:21,249 It's for you, darling. 819 01:01:25,313 --> 01:01:26,473 "Dear Grace, 820 01:01:26,874 --> 01:01:30,137 "I'm Ruth, the mother Gilbert's foster home. 821 01:01:30,621 --> 01:01:35,653 "It saddens me to tell you that Gilbert died in a tragic fire. 822 01:01:37,436 --> 01:01:39,357 "Our church caught fire 823 01:01:39,367 --> 01:01:42,910 "and was unable to escape from the flames. 824 01:01:46,278 --> 01:01:50,716 "Last week I found out Gilbert and my son Ben... 825 01:01:51,310 --> 01:01:52,762 To fornicate". 826 01:01:58,556 --> 01:01:59,649 Lucifer! 827 01:02:00,008 --> 01:02:02,732 "Surely you will agree with me that we had no other choice 828 01:02:02,742 --> 01:02:07,114 "if not delete and correct their homosexual disorder 829 01:02:07,124 --> 01:02:09,869 "in the most correct way and how he teaches us... 830 01:02:10,443 --> 01:02:13,222 "The Lord our Savior. 831 01:02:14,376 --> 01:02:16,685 "It was not a simple task. 832 01:02:17,113 --> 01:02:20,417 "We just couldn't pray away their being gay. 833 01:02:20,427 --> 01:02:24,122 "So the only solution it was a double expulsion 834 01:02:24,132 --> 01:02:26,390 "to cast out demons 835 01:02:26,400 --> 01:02:28,816 "expel the devil from their soul, 836 01:02:28,826 --> 01:02:31,256 and correct their aura". 837 01:02:31,266 --> 01:02:33,869 Away, away, wickedness! 838 01:02:34,508 --> 01:02:37,480 Away, away, Satan! 839 01:02:40,864 --> 01:02:43,463 The time has come! 840 01:02:44,189 --> 01:02:47,078 Cleanse their soul! 841 01:02:46,780 --> 01:02:48,522 {\an8}DISINFECTANT 842 01:02:48,757 --> 01:02:50,879 Cleanse them from their disease! 843 01:02:54,076 --> 01:02:56,191 Banish homosexuality! 844 01:02:56,979 --> 01:02:59,551 Away, homosexuality! 845 01:02:59,561 --> 01:03:01,777 Purify their soul! 846 01:03:01,787 --> 01:03:04,167 Away, away, Lucifer! 847 01:03:05,329 --> 01:03:07,347 Cast away their demons 848 01:03:07,997 --> 01:03:10,416 and make homosexuality disappear! 849 01:03:33,940 --> 01:03:35,046 That's enough! 850 01:03:37,500 --> 01:03:39,362 Excellent, excellent. 851 01:03:39,832 --> 01:03:43,952 "I am happy to say that for my son was a success. 852 01:03:44,482 --> 01:03:46,286 "But your brother... 853 01:03:46,971 --> 01:03:49,556 "The devil did not want to abandon him. 854 01:03:49,566 --> 01:03:53,441 "And he was possessed by Satan so deeply that... 855 01:03:57,379 --> 01:03:59,826 He attacked me." 856 01:04:00,849 --> 01:04:03,130 Lucifer! 857 01:04:12,396 --> 01:04:13,553 Take it! 858 01:04:16,198 --> 01:04:18,318 Look, an angel! 859 01:04:23,336 --> 01:04:24,622 Liar! 860 01:04:29,069 --> 01:04:31,225 Ugly Judas! 861 01:04:31,944 --> 01:04:34,675 He's running away! Chase him! 862 01:04:31,951 --> 01:04:33,776 {\an8}PETROL 863 01:04:34,685 --> 01:04:36,178 Take it! 864 01:04:48,058 --> 01:04:51,279 "He then entered ours church and set it on fire". 865 01:05:20,261 --> 01:05:23,662 No! Gilbert, stop! 866 01:05:33,995 --> 01:05:36,152 "He sacrificed himself 867 01:05:36,162 --> 01:05:38,862 - as punishment for his sins". - Let me out! 868 01:05:39,667 --> 01:05:41,906 "We tried to save him," 869 01:05:41,916 --> 01:05:44,450 "but Hell was too intense. 870 01:05:45,089 --> 01:05:47,743 The good Lord took his soul." 871 01:05:50,439 --> 01:05:52,472 Let me out! 872 01:05:54,089 --> 01:05:57,145 "And Lucifer lost the battle." 873 01:06:13,153 --> 01:06:16,886 Now he is purified and with Baby Jesus. 874 01:06:16,896 --> 01:06:18,672 "We commemorated him, 875 01:06:18,682 --> 01:06:21,327 "and we are sure that now yes find yourself in a happier place 876 01:06:21,337 --> 01:06:24,313 "together with God and Baby Jesus. 877 01:06:29,451 --> 01:06:32,783 “You will find a vase with your brother's ashes. 878 01:06:32,793 --> 01:06:34,974 "I think it's best if you have them. 879 01:06:33,046 --> 01:06:35,645 {\an8}RIP GILBERT APPLEBY "NOW PURIFIED AND WITH CHILD JESUS" 880 01:06:35,510 --> 01:06:39,505 "I apologize again for being bearer of such tragic news. 881 01:06:39,515 --> 01:06:41,316 "Gilbert was a good soul, 882 01:06:41,326 --> 01:06:45,591 "which tragically fell in repugnant perversions. 883 01:06:46,476 --> 01:06:50,250 "We will always pray for him and for you too. 884 01:06:50,260 --> 01:06:53,976 Our deepest condolences, Ruth and Owen Appleby". 885 01:07:05,208 --> 01:07:08,747 Losing a twin is like lose an eye, Sylvia. 886 01:07:10,157 --> 01:07:13,772 You no longer see the world as before. 887 01:07:15,957 --> 01:07:19,005 Mourning is like a void. 888 01:07:19,015 --> 01:07:22,489 Leaves a metallic taste in your mouth. 889 01:07:22,499 --> 01:07:25,088 And some stones inside the stomach. 890 01:07:27,110 --> 01:07:28,845 The tears don't fall. 891 01:07:29,599 --> 01:07:31,237 They're too scared. 892 01:07:32,267 --> 01:07:35,295 I no longer believed in the positive sides 893 01:07:35,305 --> 01:07:37,445 and in the glass half full. 894 01:07:37,455 --> 01:07:39,463 My glass was destroyed. 895 01:07:40,353 --> 01:07:41,959 I had lost my mother, 896 01:07:42,487 --> 01:07:43,624 my father 897 01:07:44,281 --> 01:07:45,553 and my brother. 898 01:07:53,800 --> 01:07:56,468 Luckily I had Pinky. 899 01:07:57,049 --> 01:07:58,348 Hey, Gracie. 900 01:07:58,358 --> 01:07:59,471 And Ken. 901 01:08:00,314 --> 01:08:03,832 His mouthfuls full of love they helped me move forward. 902 01:08:06,674 --> 01:08:08,498 But strangely... 903 01:08:09,128 --> 01:08:12,457 I felt that my snails they were my real family. 904 01:08:13,040 --> 01:08:16,639 True snails clump together when they feel threatened. 905 01:08:16,649 --> 01:08:18,377 They survive in groups. 906 01:08:21,930 --> 01:08:25,524 I was emotionally attached to every single snail. 907 01:08:26,603 --> 01:08:30,865 This is why I would never and then never throw any of you away. 908 01:08:32,206 --> 01:08:34,597 So I kept buying... 909 01:08:35,282 --> 01:08:36,429 Add... 910 01:08:37,272 --> 01:08:38,765 And steal. 911 01:08:37,977 --> 01:08:40,300 {\an8}STATIONERY PARADISE 912 01:08:42,124 --> 01:08:43,976 PENCIL SHARPENER 913 01:08:48,620 --> 01:08:49,726 In the end... 914 01:08:50,597 --> 01:08:51,980 Excuse me, ma'am. 915 01:08:52,712 --> 01:08:53,957 They caught me. 916 01:08:53,002 --> 01:08:54,426 {\an8}SECURITY 917 01:08:54,675 --> 01:08:57,081 The shame was unbearable. 918 01:08:59,956 --> 01:09:01,940 And there were consequences. 919 01:09:06,434 --> 01:09:09,102 {\an8}CARBERRA COURT SUMMON FOR THEFT 920 01:09:07,262 --> 01:09:08,866 Oh, Gracie. 921 01:09:18,189 --> 01:09:19,886 And then... 922 01:09:20,411 --> 01:09:22,540 Things got even worse. 923 01:09:24,503 --> 01:09:26,245 Love can be blind. 924 01:09:28,506 --> 01:09:30,345 It can hide darkness 925 01:09:30,939 --> 01:09:32,211 and horror. 926 01:09:37,100 --> 01:09:40,054 Apparently the onion of Ken had layers. 927 01:09:40,897 --> 01:09:42,418 He didn't love me. 928 01:09:43,634 --> 01:09:45,860 He loved my fat. 929 01:09:53,073 --> 01:09:55,547 He had a kind of perversion. 930 01:09:57,165 --> 01:09:59,211 He didn't want to fix my vase. 931 01:09:59,221 --> 01:10:03,531 He wanted to fill it, fill it, and fill it. 932 01:10:04,001 --> 01:10:06,172 With lard. 933 01:10:06,182 --> 01:10:09,524 It was one thing if I created myself a cage alone 934 01:10:09,534 --> 01:10:10,865 A little duck. 935 01:10:10,549 --> 01:10:12,235 {\an8}DUCK FAT 936 01:10:10,875 --> 01:10:14,293 Another was that someone imprison me. 937 01:10:14,303 --> 01:10:15,150 Great, Gracie. 938 01:10:15,160 --> 01:10:18,053 I knew he admired my size. 939 01:10:18,063 --> 01:10:19,822 But this went further. 940 01:10:19,832 --> 01:10:21,108 Oh, yes. 941 01:10:21,661 --> 01:10:22,477 Fantastic. 942 01:10:21,804 --> 01:10:23,214 {\an8}CALORIES 943 01:10:22,487 --> 01:10:26,696 He said the fatter I got and the more he loved me. 944 01:10:24,990 --> 01:10:26,552 {\an8}TIME - WEIGHT 945 01:10:26,697 --> 01:10:29,365 And now I knew why. 946 01:10:29,375 --> 01:10:32,354 What an idiot I had been. 947 01:10:32,364 --> 01:10:34,210 But not for much longer. 948 01:11:03,807 --> 01:11:05,425 I'm sorry, Gracie. 949 01:11:23,914 --> 01:11:27,329 Pinky came to live with me and took care of my wounds. 950 01:11:28,311 --> 01:11:32,590 I read that snails go in hibernate when they have to take care of themselves. 951 01:11:33,132 --> 01:11:34,860 I slept for a week. 952 01:11:35,406 --> 01:11:37,447 And I fought with my demons. 953 01:12:01,076 --> 01:12:02,777 I despised myself. 954 01:12:03,523 --> 01:12:06,316 My hoarding was the cause of everything. 955 01:12:06,326 --> 01:12:08,113 He had made me poor. 956 01:12:08,123 --> 01:12:12,026 And being poor had me kept away from Gilbert. 957 01:12:13,005 --> 01:12:15,103 With money wasted I could have bought 958 01:12:15,113 --> 01:12:18,215 a dozen plane tickets to go to him, Sylvia. 959 01:12:18,740 --> 01:12:20,966 And now he was dead. 960 01:12:29,952 --> 01:12:31,072 Gracie? 961 01:12:34,949 --> 01:12:36,636 I brought you lunch. 962 01:12:38,405 --> 01:12:40,887 Pinky put me on a strict diet. 963 01:12:40,528 --> 01:12:41,976 {\an8}PLUM JUICE 964 01:12:41,986 --> 01:12:45,177 And my life returned to be tolerable. 965 01:12:46,241 --> 01:12:49,455 As I slowly emerged from my darkness... 966 01:12:49,465 --> 01:12:52,604 I began to notice how much Pinky had grown old. 967 01:12:55,163 --> 01:12:56,853 I will never forget the day 968 01:12:56,863 --> 01:12:59,839 where I discovered it starting to suffer from dementia. 969 01:12:59,849 --> 01:13:01,629 I found her composing 970 01:13:01,639 --> 01:13:05,032 what he thought it was a puzzle of a rooster. 971 01:13:06,491 --> 01:13:08,883 It happened just a few months ago, Sylvia. 972 01:13:11,212 --> 01:13:14,147 She was diagnosed with Alzheimer's, 973 01:13:14,157 --> 01:13:16,194 and it got worse quickly. 974 01:13:16,204 --> 01:13:17,913 Pinky, what are you doing? 975 01:13:18,599 --> 01:13:21,005 I'm looking for something. 976 01:13:21,495 --> 01:13:22,588 What? 977 01:13:26,210 --> 01:13:27,343 I do not know. 978 01:13:32,203 --> 01:13:33,834 The roles were reversed. 979 01:13:34,636 --> 01:13:37,249 Now it was my turn to take care of her. 980 01:13:41,496 --> 01:13:43,017 My medicine. 981 01:13:45,720 --> 01:13:48,761 One day he decided not to wanting to get out of bed. 982 01:13:48,771 --> 01:13:51,838 I told you about that thing that I can't remember? 983 01:13:52,591 --> 01:13:55,722 That thing I was looking for but I don't know what it is? 984 01:13:57,189 --> 01:13:58,848 Stupid brain. 985 01:13:59,401 --> 01:14:01,156 Stupid disease. 986 01:14:01,166 --> 01:14:05,848 What was the German name? of the illness that came to me? 987 01:14:06,779 --> 01:14:08,549 Guggenheimers? 988 01:14:09,268 --> 01:14:11,176 Yep, Guggenheimers. 989 01:14:12,144 --> 01:14:13,477 Relax, Pinky. 990 01:14:14,010 --> 01:14:15,199 It does not matter. 991 01:14:16,295 --> 01:14:18,010 Oh, Gracie. 992 01:14:18,480 --> 01:14:20,871 What a wonderful friend. 993 01:14:50,594 --> 01:14:51,686 Goodbye... 994 01:14:52,101 --> 01:14:53,193 Pinkie. 995 01:15:00,017 --> 01:15:01,469 The potatoes! 996 01:15:06,211 --> 01:15:07,275 Potatoes? 997 01:15:08,339 --> 01:15:09,486 Potatoes? 998 01:15:10,592 --> 01:15:12,071 Pinkie? 999 01:15:12,081 --> 01:15:13,802 Pinky, what do you mean? 1000 01:15:18,185 --> 01:15:19,788 Oh, Pinky. 1001 01:15:24,445 --> 01:15:27,002 PINKY'S CRYING PLANTS 1002 01:15:39,027 --> 01:15:41,978 RIP PINKY HE HOLDS THE ANGELS BY THE HANDS 1003 01:15:50,967 --> 01:15:52,612 Goodbye, Pinky. 1004 01:16:18,099 --> 01:16:20,145 Be free, Sylvia. 1005 01:16:42,221 --> 01:16:43,438 Potatoes? 1006 01:16:44,101 --> 01:16:45,249 Potatoes? 1007 01:16:46,134 --> 01:16:47,309 Sylvia. 1008 01:16:48,805 --> 01:16:52,040 Maybe that's what he would have wanted as a last meal? 1009 01:16:54,335 --> 01:16:56,879 Damn life! 1010 01:16:57,557 --> 01:16:59,476 Damn life! 1011 01:16:59,486 --> 01:17:00,803 It's just... 1012 01:17:00,813 --> 01:17:04,453 It's just a stupid, stupid puzzle! 1013 01:17:04,463 --> 01:17:05,600 Damnation! 1014 01:17:10,114 --> 01:17:11,663 I'm so alone! 1015 01:17:12,230 --> 01:17:15,451 I'm so... so alone. 1016 01:17:26,466 --> 01:17:31,440 Bunny face! Bunny face! Bunny face! Bunny face! 1017 01:17:31,450 --> 01:17:33,288 - Great, Gracie. - Grace Pudel! 1018 01:17:33,298 --> 01:17:36,839 - Nice hairdo. - Come on, you two, let's go. 1019 01:17:36,849 --> 01:17:39,230 "I hate this place. And I hate her." 1020 01:17:39,240 --> 01:17:42,825 “Soon I will escape and cross the desert to come to you". 1021 01:17:40,549 --> 01:17:42,429 {\an8}PINKY'S SHED 1022 01:17:42,835 --> 01:17:47,791 "It saddens me to tell you that Gilbert died in a tragic fire". 1023 01:17:45,284 --> 01:17:47,316 {\an8}POISON FOR SNAILS 1024 01:18:05,293 --> 01:18:06,247 POTATOES 1025 01:18:07,505 --> 01:18:09,206 The potatoes! 1026 01:18:13,796 --> 01:18:14,929 The potatoes! 1027 01:18:37,686 --> 01:18:41,239 "Dear Grace, if you are reading this letter 1028 01:18:41,249 --> 01:18:44,529 "It means I'm dead like a donut 1029 01:18:44,539 --> 01:18:46,993 "and you found mine biscuit box 1030 01:18:47,003 --> 01:18:50,729 "and some things I wish you had. 1031 01:18:51,274 --> 01:18:53,997 "You've been sleeping for days 1032 01:18:54,007 --> 01:18:57,011 "And I have to tell you some important things 1033 01:18:57,021 --> 01:18:59,762 “before my brain rot completely. 1034 01:19:02,045 --> 01:19:05,141 "Old age is such a bastard. 1035 01:19:05,151 --> 01:19:07,533 "It arrives without you realizing it. 1036 01:19:08,307 --> 01:19:11,584 “One day you sink teeth in an apple... 1037 01:19:12,586 --> 01:19:14,134 "And they stay there. 1038 01:19:16,174 --> 01:19:19,582 "Try to smooth out the creases of your socks 1039 01:19:20,245 --> 01:19:23,107 "and you realize that you don't you're wearing socks. 1040 01:19:25,353 --> 01:19:28,477 "Anyway, I digress. 1041 01:19:28,487 --> 01:19:30,178 "My secrets. 1042 01:19:30,980 --> 01:19:33,676 "First of all, I'm an orphan. 1043 01:19:34,078 --> 01:19:36,954 "I grew up in an orphanage 1044 01:19:36,964 --> 01:19:38,986 "after the Great War. 1045 01:19:39,816 --> 01:19:41,876 "It was a terrible place. 1046 01:19:41,886 --> 01:19:45,137 "Where they kept me in a cradle day and night. 1047 01:19:45,883 --> 01:19:48,620 “They never kept me in his arms, embraced. 1048 01:19:49,436 --> 01:19:51,607 "The only contact I had 1049 01:19:51,617 --> 01:19:53,874 "he was with the child next to me. 1050 01:19:54,819 --> 01:19:59,368 "No, I won't tell you about the horrors that I remember. 1051 01:19:59,378 --> 01:20:04,358 "But I would like to tell you what it is try to be imprisoned. 1052 01:20:04,786 --> 01:20:06,266 "Caged. 1053 01:20:06,276 --> 01:20:09,003 "It's just terrifying. 1054 01:20:09,943 --> 01:20:12,487 "But in the following years 1055 01:20:12,998 --> 01:20:16,348 "I learned that cages are worse 1056 01:20:16,874 --> 01:20:20,288 "They are the ones we create ourselves. 1057 01:20:21,394 --> 01:20:25,694 "You created a cage for yourself alone, Gracie. 1058 01:20:27,174 --> 01:20:30,174 "Your cage is never been locked. 1059 01:20:30,892 --> 01:20:33,505 "But your fears have trapped you. 1060 01:20:37,522 --> 01:20:40,426 "Get rid of those snails. 1061 01:20:41,269 --> 01:20:43,260 "Free yourself. 1062 01:20:44,573 --> 01:20:47,449 "You got rid of that disturbing Ken. 1063 01:20:47,826 --> 01:20:51,241 "Now it's time to get rid of it of your shell. 1064 01:20:51,683 --> 01:20:53,909 "Remove buildup. 1065 01:20:55,941 --> 01:20:57,552 "Start over. 1066 01:20:58,316 --> 01:21:01,523 "Oh, it's okay to feel sorry for yourself a little. 1067 01:21:02,076 --> 01:21:03,984 "But it's time to move on. 1068 01:21:05,677 --> 01:21:07,385 "It will be painful, 1069 01:21:07,848 --> 01:21:09,493 "but that's life. 1070 01:21:10,270 --> 01:21:12,800 "You have to face it head-on. 1071 01:21:13,464 --> 01:21:14,975 Be brave." 1072 01:22:04,241 --> 01:22:08,651 “Anyway, I want to thank you, Gracie. 1073 01:22:09,099 --> 01:22:10,979 "You were fantastic. 1074 01:22:11,477 --> 01:22:15,583 "It's not long until my time. 1075 01:22:15,593 --> 01:22:18,849 "The time has come to close the curtain. 1076 01:22:19,194 --> 01:22:22,101 "For the first time in my life 1077 01:22:22,111 --> 01:22:25,157 "I feel older than what I look like. 1078 01:22:25,167 --> 01:22:27,738 "and I look like a testicle. 1079 01:22:28,899 --> 01:22:31,689 "Life is a beautiful tapestry 1080 01:22:31,699 --> 01:22:34,533 "and it needs to be experienced. 1081 01:22:35,839 --> 01:22:39,060 "Enjoy its little pleasures. 1082 01:22:39,848 --> 01:22:44,009 "Like smoking a cigar in the rain. 1083 01:22:46,414 --> 01:22:50,215 "Or wear a sweater fresh out of the dryer. 1084 01:22:51,578 --> 01:22:53,679 "Now enough with the chatter. 1085 01:22:53,689 --> 01:22:55,891 "The time has come for both of us 1086 01:22:55,901 --> 01:22:57,773 "to let go. 1087 01:22:58,465 --> 01:23:00,096 "As I said, 1088 01:23:00,704 --> 01:23:04,704 “life can only be understood looking back 1089 01:23:05,308 --> 01:23:08,603 "but you have to live it looking forward. 1090 01:23:09,358 --> 01:23:13,229 "Snails don't move never backwards in their wake. 1091 01:23:13,239 --> 01:23:15,660 "They always move forward. 1092 01:23:17,094 --> 01:23:22,268 "It's time to leave your glittery trail for the whole world. 1093 01:23:23,664 --> 01:23:28,634 And remember, don't come back never, ever back." 1094 01:23:34,640 --> 01:23:36,534 {\an8}COURT 1095 01:23:35,778 --> 01:23:38,433 On your feet! Silence in the courtroom. 1096 01:23:36,544 --> 01:23:38,719 {\an8}TEST A 1097 01:23:39,663 --> 01:23:41,447 Miss Pudel. 1098 01:23:41,457 --> 01:23:43,626 His crime is serious. 1099 01:23:44,027 --> 01:23:48,617 A theft is a theft, whatever it is of a diamond or a cucumber. 1100 01:23:49,156 --> 01:23:53,310 And if you forgive the fox for stealing a hen, will steal a sheep. 1101 01:23:56,426 --> 01:23:57,649 Anyway... 1102 01:23:59,163 --> 01:24:03,050 I read from her face that she is full of shame and repentance. 1103 01:24:04,134 --> 01:24:07,664 And true repentance already exists a sufficient punishment. 1104 01:24:07,674 --> 01:24:09,836 I know he is a kind person. 1105 01:24:10,535 --> 01:24:13,380 Many years ago a little girl he showed me kindness 1106 01:24:13,390 --> 01:24:16,210 when I had reached my lowest point. 1107 01:24:19,500 --> 01:24:21,436 Well done, little opossum. 1108 01:24:22,113 --> 01:24:23,226 Good. 1109 01:24:23,236 --> 01:24:27,083 That little girl gave me hope and the courage to start again. 1110 01:24:27,093 --> 01:24:29,418 And to abandon my vices. 1111 01:24:31,308 --> 01:24:34,294 He will also have long hands, Miss Pudel, 1112 01:24:34,833 --> 01:24:37,142 but I know he has a heart of gold, 1113 01:24:37,152 --> 01:24:39,810 and did numerous good deeds. 1114 01:24:39,820 --> 01:24:43,671 I therefore absolve you of all charges. 1115 01:24:44,843 --> 01:24:46,516 The case is closed. 1116 01:24:54,503 --> 01:24:59,024 ONE YEAR LATER... 1117 01:25:00,074 --> 01:25:02,736 CANBERRA FILM SCHOOL 1118 01:25:02,746 --> 01:25:04,980 ATTENTION! THIS SIGN IT HAS POINTED CORNERS. 1119 01:25:08,699 --> 01:25:10,987 Life has thrown me here and there. 1120 01:25:11,595 --> 01:25:14,333 But now everything tasted different. 1121 01:25:15,356 --> 01:25:19,005 And I had finally started to become the person I always wanted to be. 1122 01:25:19,597 --> 01:25:21,699 {\an8}INTERNATIONAL FESTIVAL OF CANBERRA CINEMA 1123 01:25:21,878 --> 01:25:24,021 I made a film about my life. 1124 01:25:24,152 --> 01:25:26,156 {\an8}THE SNAIL'S REVENGE NARRATED BY EDNA EVERAGE 1125 01:25:39,772 --> 01:25:41,486 END 1126 01:25:44,011 --> 01:25:45,538 It wasn't much. 1127 01:25:46,818 --> 01:25:49,151 But a few people came. 1128 01:25:49,161 --> 01:25:52,147 And I also held a session of questions and answers later. 1129 01:25:52,157 --> 01:25:54,461 Are there... are there any questions? 1130 01:26:04,440 --> 01:26:05,574 Oh, well. 1131 01:26:06,542 --> 01:26:08,283 Thanks for coming. 1132 01:26:09,435 --> 01:26:10,555 Yes. 1133 01:26:13,278 --> 01:26:14,426 I have one. 1134 01:26:17,813 --> 01:26:18,877 By chance... 1135 01:26:19,651 --> 01:26:21,158 Do you believe in magic? 1136 01:26:33,734 --> 01:26:34,826 Gilbert? 1137 01:26:35,845 --> 01:26:36,896 Yes. 1138 01:26:37,566 --> 01:26:38,638 It's me. 1139 01:26:40,262 --> 01:26:42,639 I crossed that desert. 1140 01:27:31,288 --> 01:27:34,554 THE DIARY OF ANNE FRANK 1141 01:27:34,564 --> 01:27:37,595 THE RED CHESTED PIRATE 1142 01:27:43,181 --> 01:27:46,651 It took me a while to believe that Gilbert was alive. 1143 01:27:53,442 --> 01:27:55,709 How did he do it? save yourself from the fire. 1144 01:28:00,105 --> 01:28:02,462 And how his ashes were just... 1145 01:28:02,926 --> 01:28:03,976 Ashes. 1146 01:28:05,165 --> 01:28:10,073 {\an8}CANDIES 1147 01:28:05,801 --> 01:28:09,188 His urn now had a new function. 1148 01:28:12,789 --> 01:28:15,274 Life continued its cycle. 1149 01:28:16,214 --> 01:28:19,337 And you have completed your task, Sylvia. 1150 01:28:21,369 --> 01:28:24,929 We were finally free from our cages. 1151 01:28:29,541 --> 01:28:33,204 And even if our family it had shrunk a bit... 1152 01:28:35,043 --> 01:28:37,124 We were together again. 1153 01:28:43,525 --> 01:28:47,333 There was one last thing left to free. 1154 01:28:55,319 --> 01:28:58,340 Gilbert still smelled of burnt matches. 1155 01:29:00,040 --> 01:29:03,122 The setting sun stung our skin 1156 01:29:03,798 --> 01:29:05,540 our two souls 1157 01:29:06,840 --> 01:29:09,079 and our only heart. 1158 01:29:21,519 --> 01:29:24,118 Subtitles: invisiblecat